Since my assignment this week is to be aware of my conversation with God and to simply know that God is present and hearing, Yancey's honest remarks struck a chord with me.

After 54 years of living and almost that many years of praying, I am still learning more than I ever suspected I did not know.

I still find myself "editing" my prayers. I still tend to be baffled by the "why"s, "how"s, and "what"s of prayer. Like the disciples, I find myself continually praying, "Lord, teach me to pray."

After all these years, one would think I would know but sometimes one can't "get there" by thinking what one would think.

So here is my thought: I will keep praying and, as I pray, I will keep asking the questions. I will not edit out my self-doubt and lack of spiritual sophistication and insight. I am here to meet God and that is what it is.